released.

A great photo by Photochiel I found on flickr.

It confused my cynical self.

So this whole portfolio process and grad school application process is quite stressful. I am sure that people who have been to grad school are quite understanding of this. I suppose that the most stressful part is that of not beating yourself up in the process.

The portfolio design process takes forever. Edit after edit after edit - after screw it all and start again. I still have a while until all of it is due, and yet when do you stop editing and just turn it in... (i know and age old question.)

Regardless, if I work as hard as I can on all of this stuff then I cannot feel bad if I get rejected from my dream school? Please send positive vibes in this direction - it would be much appreciated.

Additionally along the lines of these thoughts is the fact that I just finished reading a biography on Samuel Pepys. It is very comforting to know that even in the seventeen hundreds people had the same exact feelings and life as ourselves. The got takeout, they cheated, they had sex, they feared and loved. They also failed and moved on. Maybe this is a lesson for me to learn - it is possible to fail and move on to greater things.

(currently working on my optimism....)

ps.. I ate a HUGE steak last weekend and it was fantastic... mmmmm I love beef.

In regards to queries I recieved about my previous post I have decided to elaborate and let you all into my world for a moment.

For the last year, after reading 'Fast Food Nation' I decided to go vegetarian. It was great since many of my friends are also of the plant eaters only kind - with that i was shown how to live and feel good. Sadly due to my mothers roasts, toad in the hole and shephards pie I have returned to the carniverous life. Today I had chicken. I have realized, slowly, that since I am eating chicken probably once a week I am in no shape to call my self a vegetarian anymore.

So, to all of my non-meat friends - I am sorry that I have let you down - but please remember that I still will not eat McDonalds and only eat free range, organic meats. That has to count for something.

Of course, the upside to this is the fact that I am going to Iceland and many of their specialties involve meat. The one I am most excited to eat is that of puffin - a cute arctic bird. They also apparently have whale, shark, horse, and seal. Honestly I can't wait - I just hope they have good chocolate too ;)

In just over a month I will be walking on glaciers and eating puffin.

The joys of travel and no longer being a vegetarian unite.