released.
11.29.2004
Screaming in a Pillow.
I have returned from the Cleveland to the dreaded Columbus. I spent two nights and one day with the folks and drank and ate all I could have dreamed of – it was wonderful. I then spent a nice relaxing night at Joe’s parents house. We watched the James Bond with Zorrin and Mayday while guzzling cheap wine. I can’t believe that Mayday actually thought that Zorrin loved her!! Not bad. We then drove back to Columbus and I am currently at work – it’s Monday.
I honestly don’t know how much longer I can do the Columbus thing. It is mind numbing – and maybe I need help with my life outlook, but things are just not fun. I couldn’t sleep last night again due to my fixation on the animals rustling in the walls (I live in an old, old Victorian house) and my obsession with my current life status.
Work is becoming stressful because I feel like a complete idiot. I know nothing about the damn field of architecture. Who was I kidding when I went to school for this? This as in 40+ hour a week of feeling like I am stupid and the remainder of the week trying to convince myself I am not stupid.
Not even Chocolate Chocolate Chip cookies make me feel better anymore. Vanilla maybe?
I honestly don’t know how much longer I can do the Columbus thing. It is mind numbing – and maybe I need help with my life outlook, but things are just not fun. I couldn’t sleep last night again due to my fixation on the animals rustling in the walls (I live in an old, old Victorian house) and my obsession with my current life status.
Work is becoming stressful because I feel like a complete idiot. I know nothing about the damn field of architecture. Who was I kidding when I went to school for this? This as in 40+ hour a week of feeling like I am stupid and the remainder of the week trying to convince myself I am not stupid.
Not even Chocolate Chocolate Chip cookies make me feel better anymore. Vanilla maybe?
:: posted by SarahJ, 29.11.04